Mar. 6th, 2004
It's finally Saturday
Mar. 6th, 2004 07:02 amAnd, while I'm not completely better, I do feel human today. Life is good.
Came home sick yesterday morning, spent the day sniffling and feeling pitiful. Did get the order placed to Dharma, for the rest of my costume, and for stuff for Cat. Between the two of us, we had enough on the list to hit the quantity discounts. Scary. (By the way,![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
classics_cat: I had it shipped 2-day Air, so it ought to be here Mon or Tues next week.)
My beads arrived just after I got home yesterday. Did not get anything assembled, mostly because I haven't decided how I want to do the ornaments that won't be sewn directly to the fabric. EEEK! Must remember to draw mask today, so we can start on that.
Tonight's project is calligraphy...a proclamation scroll for a PR thingie for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sdemory. Lucky me, I already have the materials. Scrounge-o-matic wins again!
I'm trying to decide if the crocheted tube necklace is done yet....I've got almost 4' of beaded rope done, and I just can't decide what to to with the ends. Join them? Tie them off and call it good? Add fringe or interesting dangly bits? When I cut the ball thread the last time, I tied the piece in a knot, and played with it as a necklace...I like the way it knots and hangs, but I'd like it longer, and I've only got enough of these beads for 4-5". Got plenty of time to think about it and decide today.
My second alto recorder from Ebay arrived Thurs, which sucked, because I didn't have enough wind to play, and skipped rehearsal that night. (I know, I know, bad me.) Played it a little last night...nice sound, especially in the upper register, I'm sure it will sound better when I can breathe well enough to support the tone. Still not sure what the wood is, the brand is "Serenade", and it's marked made in Germany. Not a brand I've heard of. Not that it means much. I'll ask Betty next week.
Came home sick yesterday morning, spent the day sniffling and feeling pitiful. Did get the order placed to Dharma, for the rest of my costume, and for stuff for Cat. Between the two of us, we had enough on the list to hit the quantity discounts. Scary. (By the way,
classics_cat: I had it shipped 2-day Air, so it ought to be here Mon or Tues next week.) My beads arrived just after I got home yesterday. Did not get anything assembled, mostly because I haven't decided how I want to do the ornaments that won't be sewn directly to the fabric. EEEK! Must remember to draw mask today, so we can start on that.
Tonight's project is calligraphy...a proclamation scroll for a PR thingie for
sdemory. Lucky me, I already have the materials. Scrounge-o-matic wins again!I'm trying to decide if the crocheted tube necklace is done yet....I've got almost 4' of beaded rope done, and I just can't decide what to to with the ends. Join them? Tie them off and call it good? Add fringe or interesting dangly bits? When I cut the ball thread the last time, I tied the piece in a knot, and played with it as a necklace...I like the way it knots and hangs, but I'd like it longer, and I've only got enough of these beads for 4-5". Got plenty of time to think about it and decide today.
My second alto recorder from Ebay arrived Thurs, which sucked, because I didn't have enough wind to play, and skipped rehearsal that night. (I know, I know, bad me.) Played it a little last night...nice sound, especially in the upper register, I'm sure it will sound better when I can breathe well enough to support the tone. Still not sure what the wood is, the brand is "Serenade", and it's marked made in Germany. Not a brand I've heard of. Not that it means much. I'll ask Betty next week.
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Mar. 6th, 2004 02:09 pmSo letting By sleep in this morning didn't work as well as I'd hope it would. I guess the cats woke him around 7 or so. Oh well, I tried.
By came down this morning, to pick up some trahsed mower blades and go dumpster diving; not sure what his plans for the afternoon were. Probably working in/on the garage.
I've gotten a fair amount done today, not the whole list (couple things didn't get done 'cuz the weekend PT guy didn't show up 'til 2), but enough. Hard to make myself stay here, when I could be at home gardening and enjoying the sun.
By came down this morning, to pick up some trahsed mower blades and go dumpster diving; not sure what his plans for the afternoon were. Probably working in/on the garage.
I've gotten a fair amount done today, not the whole list (couple things didn't get done 'cuz the weekend PT guy didn't show up 'til 2), but enough. Hard to make myself stay here, when I could be at home gardening and enjoying the sun.
Been thinking
Mar. 6th, 2004 02:32 pmAbout friends, and former friends, and honor, and respect.
A while back,jdoryt posted an essay on forgiveness. That sparked questions in my mind about forgiveness, both for myself, and for people around me.
I firmly believe that some things are unforgiveable. Murder, rape, harming a child, betraying your word, burning a book--the usual things, I think.
I've become estranged from a couple of formerly close friends the last two years, because of this. I've talked with one of them, some; not enough to repair the damage, but it's a start. The other.....I just don't know. I realize I should have said something about the original incident when it happened, but at the time, we were very busy, and very tired, and I just didn't know what to say. That, coupled with a realization that this relationship had become very one-sided--well, I just allowed this person to drift away. Part of me feels like I should sit down with the individual, at least long enough to tell them why I've drifted away. Another part of me says don't bother, because they haven't tried to talk to me in the last two years, and they probably haven't noticed I'm gone.
Closer to home, reading Dory's post brought me to realize that there are some things I've never forgiven myself for. Being raped: no matter how many times friends tell me those three nights were not my fault, there's still a twinge of guilt in my mind. Especially about the second time....I knew what I was going to, and had I said something, refused to go, it would not have happened. But I didn't, out of pride, and fear of what my family would say. And that's what I can't forgive, now.
A while back,
jdoryt posted an essay on forgiveness. That sparked questions in my mind about forgiveness, both for myself, and for people around me. I firmly believe that some things are unforgiveable. Murder, rape, harming a child, betraying your word, burning a book--the usual things, I think.
I've become estranged from a couple of formerly close friends the last two years, because of this. I've talked with one of them, some; not enough to repair the damage, but it's a start. The other.....I just don't know. I realize I should have said something about the original incident when it happened, but at the time, we were very busy, and very tired, and I just didn't know what to say. That, coupled with a realization that this relationship had become very one-sided--well, I just allowed this person to drift away. Part of me feels like I should sit down with the individual, at least long enough to tell them why I've drifted away. Another part of me says don't bother, because they haven't tried to talk to me in the last two years, and they probably haven't noticed I'm gone.
Closer to home, reading Dory's post brought me to realize that there are some things I've never forgiven myself for. Being raped: no matter how many times friends tell me those three nights were not my fault, there's still a twinge of guilt in my mind. Especially about the second time....I knew what I was going to, and had I said something, refused to go, it would not have happened. But I didn't, out of pride, and fear of what my family would say. And that's what I can't forgive, now.