More venting.

[treeskin]

I know I said that this morning I'd had enough. I backslid. Bad me.

Spent over an hour IM'ing with Y. Nothing much new; same "I made mistakes but..." *sigh* I'm so very tired of all the buts in this mess.

And perhaps I'm not being entirely fair to Y; my patience with the whole business, and Y in particular, is low. I'm tired of X & Y trying to attck the people I'm relying on for support, just because X & Y don't know those people. I strongly disagree with Y saying that my "other" friends have been behaving unethicly and unjustly, simply because my "other" friends don't want to talk Y. *shakes head* My "other" friends are in this for me, not X & Y.

Y is starting to pick at Q, and what Q's said. Y says he feels that Q has lied to him; although he wouldn't say about what when I asked him. Just some lines about how Q doesn't seem to think much of him now, and he wonders what was between them. Gee, fancy that. Think about what you've just said, man, and then think about Q's past. You knew about Q's hot buttons, same as you knew about X's. You knew there were certain actions that Q just won't tolerate. Acting confused now is just that. An act.

And, to be quite frank, while I do think that Y owes By & I some sort of apology, for his behavior, it's nothing compared to what I think he owes X & Q. And the rest of our camp, who he's consistently let down since this whole mess started.

The terraforming project is on hold, due to our finances, and X & Y's finances, and Y's lack of effort in getting ready. I wished I hadn't believed Y when he said he'd be able to do the work despite the drama. I told him this morning that he'd have to call Earth Rising and tell them why it wasn't going to happen, because I wasn't going to.

My politeness filter is getting very frayed in my interactions with X & Y. Not sure that's a bad thing, now. Maybe they'll realize how much we've tried, and that they've used up our generosity.

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